Friends Forever??

Well, I have a friend and we are quite close. He has a gf, also my ex classmate cum ex colleague. We often hang out together. Had fun together and pretty much do many things together.

However, today, I'm not quite happy. Because, when we plan to have a BBQ, must I be involved in every way? Today, I was just too busy to have a chat with them and told them to plan it I'll just follow. Then, the gf suddenly said that I always am the one not doing anything. I'm the one that always come with empty handed and I'm the only one not doing the cleaning up and I'm the one that's not doing anything. In other words, what I have done is just washed to the drain. Fine. I may not be the one to do the marinating, I may not be the one to bring the BBQ stove I may not be the one to bring all the necessary utensils. Big deal. But I do help to cook to clean up to cut the meat and sort on. And those are nothing I've done. I've even sometimes bring over the stuff to be used. Joined them to go shopping for things and materials. Then OK... I've not done anything. Fine. And what I most unhappy of is maybe they are just taking it a joke. I don't know. Since I left the conversation. So, they made an issue of my not involvement. Then decided the duty of that day. So, I'm the one to buy drinks, I'm the one to do the cooking, I'm the one to do the cleaning and they the one to sit and enjoy the dinner. Great... what a friend. I wasn't going to make an argument but I don't see that why I have to do all these then. I'm just too lazy to argue with them. Rather, I skip the chat and do my work. Let them have all the fun. Fine then, since those are my duty then I'll do it. Satisfied. There's no point to start a fight and lets not be friend. Why would I do that. But as long they see that I DID NOT JUST COME TO EAT AND SLEEP then I'm fine. I may not have done that much as they did. But at least please lah appreciate that I did contribute.

And most of all. Me having lots of job, doing some managerial works and "Oh now he's the manager.... " attitude. I hate that when they group me that way. While they are the "slaves". I did not choose to be manager. And most of all I'm not even a manager. I'm just a Lead. That's a big diff and is the most not nice job. Of cause my responsibility at work is more but don't think that I earn more and I'm the "Manager". I have nothing to do with the "Manager". I'm just like them a slave. Why can't they see that point. Who thinks that being the Manager means more relaxing and can assign people to do all the dirty jobs. I'm the one to take the hit and I'm still bloody working hard in the rat race... Can they see that? I'm always involved with all the meetings. I'm always late with pending works, I'm always trying to fix others' works than mine. And they claim to be the "Slave". Have they not known that sometimes being the slave is better than being the leader. Gosh... I'm sick of that when they make fun of "He's the Manager..." joke. Can they imagine that why do I always work late in the office when they are having fun out there. I sometimes have to go back on weekends just to finish off some urgent stuff.. and they take me as a joke.......

Well, sorry readers. These are just my rant. I just can't get somewhere else to frust. So... I'll bla it all out here. Good night.

One Step More to Gayism...

Few weeks ago, I've received a message from a lengzai in ManJam. We've exchanged contact but never did call him.

So, last Saturday, finally message him. At 1st, I was thinking of just meeting as friend, but then he asked me if I have any naked pic. So I mistaken him as looking for ONS. Blur blur go and message him. But the respond is OK. Then he proceeded to ask if I am a T or B and sort on. I've not done B.

Then, we set a time. and I'm all ready for him. That night after some trouble with the phone network, we still managed to meet. Not quite like him in the photo.. but he is definitely a good looking guy. The 1st time we met, my heart was saying "this guy is going to fuck me.." lol...

So, we proceeded to his place. then he made his move. And OMG, he's good.... the kissing the caressing all I felt good. I'm such a noob that I was just redoing what he did to me. Hope I did it correctly that he's happy too. And I have to comment his tool is like WTF. the girth is like x1.5 of mine. Damn.. so big... hahaha.

He's the 1st guy to take my ass and lucky I'm still manageable. But 1 thing I'm quite contradicting about is... I let him cum into me... without a condom. I was happy as well as scared of the safety.. But I trust him.. well what's done is done.. don't trust also cannot lah.

Still, overall... I think I'm liking him already. I may not like the B that much (as it makes me feel like wanna shit) but I think he's a good sex partner. And I know there's way lot I need to learn from him... haha... *blush*

P/S: Hope we'll meet again..