A Little About Me....

I'm a programmer as profession, not the hard working type though.. However, I do think I learn fast in programming... (Prob because I do have some interest in the field), but I procrastinate so much that I'm even doing it now as I type.

I love sports. And I used to swim alot when I was younger. I'd say myself as a good swimmer and still love swimming. Only that I swim less nowadays. Other than swimming, I found other sports when I started working. So currently I've done swimming, diving, sailing, badminton, jogging and I visit the gym room often. Well, need a healthy life here.. However, I never get the body I desire. Maybe I'm just eating more than I should.

I love food, I'd eat a whole cow if it's delicious. Although I may not as big an eater as some who has no bottom, but I'm still as much a big eater (provided the food is nice).

Also some history of my health. I've twisted my back from badminton before. I couldn't even stand straight and when I look into the mirror I'm like standing in 'S' form.. how weird. I've also got slip disc at the age of 27. Pathetic that is, why would I have such sickness at such young age. Anyway... that's all I can think of.

PS. Oh and I get to meet lots of good lookings during sports.. Probably that's the main motivation I venture into sports so much :)

Random....

Sometime after the last post, I've not been blogging enough.. Well, things just keep coming up. The week after the cute trainer, my brother came back for holiday with his gf. Well, we did a little of this and that... here and there. Mostly we spend on food. And I got to meet my bro's friend, which is a Jazz fanatic. But he's just unique... and kind of handsome too...

After that, time passed and my brother went back to KL. So, we are back to our normal routine. I continued with my badminton and gym. Life's just as normal as can be. Had my first time singing in public. Still shy off alot... and they said my voice is just too deep.. maybe I didn't sing with all I have yet... Wait and see lah.. haha!

Other than that, nothing much to update... hope to see more guys :)

These Days...

Last week, our company had invited some trainers from Australia to give training on some surveying devices. I wasn't paying much attention to them as they'll only come to give us training the week after.

However, due to the arrangement of manpower to bring them dinner, I was involved on guiding them around the places along with my other colleague. Last Sunday was the 1st day to bring them around town. I then realised that there's a cute guy among the trainers. He's just about my height, a Vietnamese grown up in Australia. He's got an average body I'd say.. but his face is so damn good looking that I'd almost want to 'tapao' him home. But I just kept that to myself.

So, 2 guys did I mention, but 1 of them went back to Australia on that Sunday. And that evening we brought this cute trainer to a beachside club house for dinner. Of course, we had a walk along the beach side. It was nice that we enjoyed sunset together. Had a big dinner (Oh I always like to feed my guest full whenever they come to visit) 2 buckets of beer and then went home. the next day will be the training.

On site training, I got the chance to take a glimps of him from time to time. Especially HE is the TRAINER, who doesnt pay attention to look at his trainer? He's just too sexy that even my female colleague was saying that. She likes his butt too... lol.. ( I only got to know this this evening)

That night I was too, incharge for his dinner. With the constraint budget, got to have some dinner in town, which I think he's satisfied with the food. Had heard some stories of him, knew him abit and apparently he's the same age as me (which is even perfect) However, I was too coward and too quiet to have asked more about him.
Note to self: Gotta improve my communication skill

Anyway, through out the admiring sessions, tonite is the last time I'll get to see him. Well, I actually still get to see him more but through the picture. I'd rather meet him face to face again.
Brought him to one of the famous restaurant here in town, hope he liked the dinner. That's all I can serve for him with such a short time. But I sure enjoyed every moments with him.

Damn, I think I had a crush on him in such a short time... I'm getting more and more like a whore lately. Wish him have a safe journey back to Australia... good nite!!

Random...

Last night.. my brother called my mom. He said, mom may need to be prepared for his wedding. He is planning on engaging with his girl friend, Dede. It was good to hear that he finally plans to plant his foot and start to root the family.

On the other hand, Mom did ask me if I have any girls in mind... I'd just say no. And she just said maybe faith has not come for me yet. And I said ya. Maybe....

My mom is kind of a modern lady. She doesn't push me to get a girl and get married. However, deep down I sure knew that she too has a conservative mind which wishes the family to branch out and grow. But I can never promise her that... what should I do... At least, on the bright side, My brother is planning on branching for the family... I feel happy for him :)

艾草

艾草

这是一部很感人的戏。剧中的男主角正好演出了我的心声。我是同性恋的同时也不想伤害我的家人。情愿不要告诉家人我心中的秘密也不想伤害他们的心。好挣扎哦！不过我也相信我的母亲也和剧中的艾草一样能接受我是同性恋的事实的。只是，我一直很不想让他们失望。

不过我也很想和我的母亲一起分享这部剧的情节。因为它的故事太好了。充满了生活的点点滴滴很实在。我的华语不好所以只能说到这里。拜拜！

This is a very touching story. The actor has just played my role in the movie. I'm a gay but at the same time I don't want to hurt my family. Rather not tell my secret, I don't want to hurt their feelings. But I do believe that my mom is just like 艾草, which she eventually will accept the fact that her son is gay. But, I just don't want to disappoint my parents.

However, I do wish to enjoy this loving story with my mom, because the story is just too good. It filled with every bits and pieces of life, very down to earth story. My Mandrin is not very good, therefore I'd like to stop here. Bye Bye!

Hey Handsome, Ouch！ It Hurts...

Being gay the biggest advantage is to be close with someone you like without them knowing. You get to sit side by side, secretly look at them, feel happy just to be near them or even be friend with them. But that's also the biggest disadvantage.

Lately, I've been to outstation for work and met a good looking guy. Kind of like how he look. Damn gorgeous man (at least to my standard that is). I even get to sit next to him to give some training on using the system we've developed. But, knowing that he is straight doesn't really hurt my feelings too.. Cause, I've expected most of the guys here I know are straight. I'm just the damn unlucky gay who happens to live in an all straight community.

That's why I've been silent all this while and only secretly admiring other guys in the closet. Pity that is... but that's life. Well, seems the title's not very much appropriate to this writing. But anyway, gotta crash now... tired week have just ended... new week to come.

Latter Day

Being silently gay, I've lived a life without anyone knowing. Therefore, I'm always interested in gay material stories. For example, I've bought a book about how a guy came out to admit his gayness. Movies about coming out, gay love, sort and sort. I've browsed through the Internet and downloaded a few of the good gay movies out there. The Love Of Siam, No Regrets, Shelter more and more. But, Today, I've finally caught a time to watch another gay theme movie. That is Latter Day. It's a nice loving story about how a Mormon came out and found a true love.

I'd wish someday I'll find my own love too. But I sometimes doubt that is it easy for a gay to find true love among ourselves. Since being a guy I know very well that Sex plays a big role and we don't need much love. But I'm pretty sure that's not true either... Love exist! Well, let's hope that my love will come soon as I've not been really in love for the whole 28 years...

Wish me luck!