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What Am I Up For??

People seem to have left me messages in PlanetRomeo or ManJam and we became friends. And I took them nicely as friends. However, certain people just seem to think of getting me to be their bf. Which I honestly didn't think of so. Am I being choosy here? I wonder.

I do have interest at some guys. But I never did my approach. Then, there are guys telling me how crazy they are to me. I just don't know what to respond to these. Maybe I'm just not open to people. Or I'm just too selective. I don't know. But do people out there just give a try to anybody who is interested to them? Cause that I know of, we only have met and some even only online. I've not met in person nor have I know of him enough. To start a relationship like this is just too odd. Do you agree?

Also, there's another type of people who likes to force you to answer. I've met some people, they just keep on asking you "Do You Like Me?" again and again. And I've only met him like at that time. Well, if he's super handsome.. I'll drop dead to say "Yes I Do." lol.. but no. Few more times of forceful questions like this and I'll just reject him.

But I wonder how will I do if I were to meet with someone I really interested and wanted to further our relationship. Can I easily get him or I'll be just like the same as those up for me. It's Karma... hahaha

Horny season?

Recently... there are more people interested in me. But I wonder why? Have I turned more handsome? But even if I have, I have not uploaded any new pictures to my profiles... Then, must it be my photo? They turned more handsome.... hahahah.. that's not even possible. I'm still fat as usual in the photo. Even if I initiate a conversation with someone I think handsome, there's always no response... So, I have concluded that there is only 1 condition to direct people to me. It's Horny Season.

Well, obviously it is not only to me. I'm just one of the beneficial. People tend to send me messages, ask me go yam cha, ask for sex and so and so. Well, some I entertain, some I dunno what they want.. probably just to say hi. Anyway, I'm pretty horny too lately. Had few sex cam, 1 HJ and fix myself most the time.. hahahah..

Hmm... have I turned this blog into a sex report? Well, I don't often post a blog due to busy working. Or there's no special thing happening in life. But now, my friend and I are having a carpentry project. hehehehe.. Although he came out with the idea and he did most of the carpentry.. but I still want to get involved.. How I wish to have a family like him... which can do all sorts of DIY.... my family is just too lazy at all these (that includes me). LOL..

Well anyway... if the product is completed.. I'll try to post a photo here... for you to judge.. who knows.. I get to sell this to people.. Ciao..

P/S: "The Talented Mr Ripley" is the book I'm reading now... Loved the movie... anyone has completed the book?

Friends Forever??

Well, I have a friend and we are quite close. He has a gf, also my ex classmate cum ex colleague. We often hang out together. Had fun together and pretty much do many things together.

However, today, I'm not quite happy. Because, when we plan to have a BBQ, must I be involved in every way? Today, I was just too busy to have a chat with them and told them to plan it I'll just follow. Then, the gf suddenly said that I always am the one not doing anything. I'm the one that always come with empty handed and I'm the only one not doing the cleaning up and I'm the one that's not doing anything. In other words, what I have done is just washed to the drain. Fine. I may not be the one to do the marinating, I may not be the one to bring the BBQ stove I may not be the one to bring all the necessary utensils. Big deal. But I do help to cook to clean up to cut the meat and sort on. And those are nothing I've done. I've even sometimes bring over the stuff to be used. Joined them to go shopping for things and materials. Then OK... I've not done anything. Fine. And what I most unhappy of is maybe they are just taking it a joke. I don't know. Since I left the conversation. So, they made an issue of my not involvement. Then decided the duty of that day. So, I'm the one to buy drinks, I'm the one to do the cooking, I'm the one to do the cleaning and they the one to sit and enjoy the dinner. Great... what a friend. I wasn't going to make an argument but I don't see that why I have to do all these then. I'm just too lazy to argue with them. Rather, I skip the chat and do my work. Let them have all the fun. Fine then, since those are my duty then I'll do it. Satisfied. There's no point to start a fight and lets not be friend. Why would I do that. But as long they see that I DID NOT JUST COME TO EAT AND SLEEP then I'm fine. I may not have done that much as they did. But at least please lah appreciate that I did contribute.

And most of all. Me having lots of job, doing some managerial works and "Oh now he's the manager.... " attitude. I hate that when they group me that way. While they are the "slaves". I did not choose to be manager. And most of all I'm not even a manager. I'm just a Lead. That's a big diff and is the most not nice job. Of cause my responsibility at work is more but don't think that I earn more and I'm the "Manager". I have nothing to do with the "Manager". I'm just like them a slave. Why can't they see that point. Who thinks that being the Manager means more relaxing and can assign people to do all the dirty jobs. I'm the one to take the hit and I'm still bloody working hard in the rat race... Can they see that? I'm always involved with all the meetings. I'm always late with pending works, I'm always trying to fix others' works than mine. And they claim to be the "Slave". Have they not known that sometimes being the slave is better than being the leader. Gosh... I'm sick of that when they make fun of "He's the Manager..." joke. Can they imagine that why do I always work late in the office when they are having fun out there. I sometimes have to go back on weekends just to finish off some urgent stuff.. and they take me as a joke.......

Well, sorry readers. These are just my rant. I just can't get somewhere else to frust. So... I'll bla it all out here. Good night.

One Step More to Gayism...

Few weeks ago, I've received a message from a lengzai in ManJam. We've exchanged contact but never did call him.

So, last Saturday, finally message him. At 1st, I was thinking of just meeting as friend, but then he asked me if I have any naked pic. So I mistaken him as looking for ONS. Blur blur go and message him. But the respond is OK. Then he proceeded to ask if I am a T or B and sort on. I've not done B.

Then, we set a time. and I'm all ready for him. That night after some trouble with the phone network, we still managed to meet. Not quite like him in the photo.. but he is definitely a good looking guy. The 1st time we met, my heart was saying "this guy is going to fuck me.." lol...

So, we proceeded to his place. then he made his move. And OMG, he's good.... the kissing the caressing all I felt good. I'm such a noob that I was just redoing what he did to me. Hope I did it correctly that he's happy too. And I have to comment his tool is like WTF. the girth is like x1.5 of mine. Damn.. so big... hahaha.

He's the 1st guy to take my ass and lucky I'm still manageable. But 1 thing I'm quite contradicting about is... I let him cum into me... without a condom. I was happy as well as scared of the safety.. But I trust him.. well what's done is done.. don't trust also cannot lah.

Still, overall... I think I'm liking him already. I may not like the B that much (as it makes me feel like wanna shit) but I think he's a good sex partner. And I know there's way lot I need to learn from him... haha... *blush*

P/S: Hope we'll meet again..

Pressure... What Should I Do?

After working for 2 years in this company, I finally realise my role as a Lead Programmer. I'm not sure anymore what's my purpose. I first thought I'm just here to overlook the projects as well as to code myself (Which I still do).

However, the management requested that we have a departmental procedure. So, I had to come up with the procedure. After discussing with 2 of my programmers, they made me realise my role is not just to do the routine n overlook the progress. Am I also involved in documenting? or I'm the one to take up the planning for each and every projects? Am I paid enough to handle all these pressures? If I were to take up all these responsibilities then I'm as well live like a robot. There's no colour in my world then... Sad...

Or, should I just take them as jokes and make them do the works.. But again, they have a point for if they do the documentations then their work will delay. We all have 2 hands... and only 2 hands.. how can I help and define the scope? Oh.. headache nya....

Blabbering here... just to pass out some gas. I HATE Pressure!

May the world in peace....

Hawdeee....

Been awhile i've not written anything here. Was busy with works after my last post. So, Taiwan. What's nice bout Taiwan. I like kao Shung.. I like Kenting, I like.. Taipei... I like.. dunno lah I like basically everything that's there.. Lol..

But the pressure of works come straight after the enjoyable holiday. sadly, many things happen too... my beloved windsurfing is not active ever since I returned. Things just prefer to happen on Weekends..

Yesterday, my mom was badly sick I had to stay home to take care of her.. lucky that I saw lots of improvement from her now.. else I'd take a day off at home n continue take care of her.

However, last Sat, we had our 1st night fishing. It was the worst time of the month to fish. No moonlight but lots of stars. I've even saw my 1st comet. lol.. And the worst most is we fished nothing. basically we droped our hook and tried to fish corals. lol.. bad timing.

gotta back to work... bye