A lot of time, People do ask me "Do you have a girl friend?" and I shyly say "No". Then, they'll keep on asking why. They seem to think that I'm quite a good looking lad and why would I be single. Well, I'm just acting shy and say I don't know. But deep down in my heart I'm very much clear of the reason. I don't seem to be much interested in girls than boys.
Ever since I was young, I was admiring handsome faces and triggered by the firm tough body whenever they play in the field shirtless. But I kept reminding my self I'm only liking pretty faces and boys generally are better looking than girls. And I gave all the reasons that I envy their body.. and I wish to have one myself... that's how I lied to myself these 20 over years. How pathetic!
Some people do actually suspect that I'm gay. But I quickly deny it. Because in my society gays are minority. Well, I think that gays are just minority as well in everywhere. But, I don't want to disappoint my family. So I'd rather take this secretly. But a secret will someday be broken out. That's why I start off with this blog to announce to the world that I AM GAY!!
The purpose of this blog is very much for me to express my feelings that I've kept this whole while. I just need a space for blabbering... excuse me for now.
Wow dude This is exactly how i feel in every word!! wish i could let my fam know without the disappointment
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